IT's NEAR!

U know what???

CHRISTMAS IS REALLY AROUND DA CORNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woo HOo!!!!!!!!!! Now I'm getting excited! Heaps of practices happening in church as the day draws near! Starting from last night. We had worship practice till 11pm! Gosh, that's super late man... and and... after practising for the presentation on Christmas day, my head felt light! Why? Coz I had to sing parts along with another friend! And her pitch is so high and I had to follow... lack of oxygen man.... blurzzzzzzzz

Sunday is going to be crazy! Service where I'm serving, followed by worship practice and meetings and FINAL REHEARSAL!

Haha... I can feel the adrenaline rush already, but hopefully I have the strength to last through all the activities line up!

Hey, feel free to come to my church for a visit. You can click on www.firstassembly.org.my for da map!

btw,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Singapore, I ain't seeing you til next month

Supposed to be down in Singapore tomorrow onwards for training cum retreat. However, due to the chicken pox that my boss' son has, it has been postponed till later. Gosh, can't believe it actually, because Friday is my birthday (nay, not making big announcement here) and some of my friends in Singapore was planning to take me out for dinner, or something of that sort. But now, too bad. What's more, my Malaysian friends knows that I'm going to Singapore and there isn't anything planned. So I guess I would just stay at home for the night, since there isn't much for me to do anyhow.

Wanted to write more, but duno wat to write suddenly... oh well...

Work is taking its toll

Would anyone want to hire me? Deemed the superwoman of the company... been working in this company for 8 months, out of which 5 I'm the only researcher in the company handling all the projects. Good decision maker and flexible and agile in all situation. Quick on her feet and quick to pick things up.

Ain't fun being deemed a superwoman in the company. The only researcher in the Malaysia officer, with another colleague who is the accounts manager, things can be quite crazy. I think I'm hitting the brink soon. With this weekend so packed with church and the need to rush work, I think I'm crashing soon.

Dear Father, I pray and pray for more of your strength each day, to help me through. I need life, and my life is in your hands. May you continue to always be the person to lead me at all times.... Father, I'm weak, totally... at the brink. Only you and you alone can sustain me,. hear my prayer Lord, for with my weary body I come before you, seeking for more of your presence...

Work - crunch time

Yeap, it's that time of my work again, where things are extremely stressful and I'm cracking my brain to write a report. Seriously, I realise that if you have to stress yourself so much just for an hour's report, then I guess there must be something wrong. Guess I'm not blessed with an analytical brain that would allow my thoughts to flow easily.

Am seriously considering of changing job... anyone can recommend anything? Aih, gotta keep praying and seeking God in this I guess...

Father, please remove the spirit of complaining in me and rather, to turn to You in all aspects Lord. I know it's tough, but I do thank You for the opportunity to work here and to learn what I'm good at. Please Lord, continue to direct my future and my path...

Sicko day

Been sick since last Thursday. Started off with a sore throat. Went to see doctor on Thursday itself as I'm trying to avoid it being full blown since I have to make a trip to Singapore during the weekend for a friend's wedding (will update on that later). So when I came back, things were still fine. But I guess the lack of sleep and the freezing cold in church on Sunday afternoon itself caused me to get worse.

So Monday, went to work as usual... face flushed and all.. colleague saw me and asked, "are u ok? Ur face is so red... why don't u go home and rest?" I did after spending half a day at work going to the loo and drinking water. Doesn't help that the office is under renovation... super dusty n smells of paint! Went home and rested. Thought a night's rest would be enough, but have some premonition about it though, coz my body was aching as I got on the bed. Next day came, I couldn't get up at all! Went back to sleep till 10 plus. Woke up and went to see the doctor. Apparently body ache was due to my body fighting those nasty bugs in my body! So yeaps, MC for the day and was told to rest. Came home, ate some light lunch and took medicine. Very effective medicine I would say, coz I totally knockout after that. Slept till 5pm. That means whole afternoon was gone.

Today, still nursing myself. Did not go to work with the same reason, sick, but am working from home. Productive?? Not very sure as well, so see how things go then... still have a report to write, another brief to prepare and another questionnaire to set. All in due time I guess....

Sanctuary

Went to church's family prayer meeting today. I think it's my first after all these years. Never a fan of going to church during weekdays unless there's something on. But God is great. Again, never did I step in to the church's office if I don't have anything to do. Today, I went in on my own, tot of dropping my notebook bag in my youth pastor's room and go for dinner. He wasn't around though, and instead, I saw Pastor Irene...she is a pastor from Australia who pastored my church last year for 6 months. There is stirring in the whole family's heart to move over and take charge of the english congregation, but I guess the timing wasn't right, for God did not allow the move up to date. So yea, still seeking the Lord for the move. Meanwhile, they fly in and out to minister to our church... such faithful servants of God.

Haven't talked to Pastor Irene for a while, and I realised she knows the happenings in my life i.e. the busy work schedule and the flying in and out of the country... whole package I supposed... she was asking how I was and all... and I've shared with her my burden and what I'm going through. Shared with her the fact that I need to re-evaluate my life right now ... it was really a fruitful discussion and she can see where my heart lies and all.. after the sharing we commited my situation to the Lord and I feel very blessed.. because I know God is listening to me and knows what I'm facing and all.

I had a great time worshipping the Lord during the worship session... well, a bit of a problem with the fact that we had to sing in cantonese, mandaring n english in different songs.. but it was good. I love to worship!! hehe... but God is truly good today, for the assurance that He gave me and for the words of comfort that He showered upon me. Am very blessed....

I believe in time, things will be clearer to me, as to what I am to do and all in regards to my work. Serving is what I would love to do the most, but only He knows which is the best job for us eh....

Will continue to pray and commit it to the Lord... Be still and acknowledge that He is God....

BZ as a BEE

Remembered the last time I was talking to a friend, whereby I told him, I'll only be tied up till mid-May. What an understatement! I'm still busy as a bee, rushing here and there, having a few projects at hand, and learning to juggle them.

This job really requires me to fly here and there... and although it is a blessing to travel, I do find it tiring.

Was in Singapore for some internal meetings end of May, and then again, at Singapore for the Emerge conference. A personal trip nonetheless, a good one, though still tiring and exhausting. God has been good, a time of refreshment in His presence. Open my eyes to see some things for myself. Some times that may not be visible to the church nowadays. Hopefully, things would be better... but that's a different story altogether.

I'm preparing to fly to Hong Kong this coming Sunday for another project. Thankfully, there isn't much that I need to do except to listen and write a report. But meeting clients and agency on my own for the first time. A little nervous perhaps... also need to portray myself to be mature, young professional. But be those that know her stuff and know what she's doing. Do I fit those criteria? I seriously have no idea, but will keep on praying.

Upside of this Hong Kong trip is that I'll be able to meet up with my Hong Kong friends whom I met in uni. I see this as GOd's blessing, for everywhere I've travelled up to date, I will be able to find existing friends there. I might not be able to meet some of them, but the mere thoughts that they are not far is a comfort to me.

Been working here for 6 months now, and things are going on a up-hill at the moment. How am I taking all these things in? I seriously have no idea. There are times where I'm so overwhelmed by so many things that I just felt that I can't take it. But at times, things are so slow that I feel so relaxed and all. Are things fine and dandy for me?

Not sure is the answer. I do like what I'm doing, but not all of it. I like the operational side of things, but not so much on the research side of things. This job opens my eyes to the different skills that I have. I'm not to say that I'm that bad in research, but it's just that....I don't know?? Shall seek God in this and see what His plans is for the future.

That aside, was chatting with a friend yesterday when he ask me about things re God. He asked, if God were to ask you to quit your job and serve Him full time, would you? Prior to this, was sharing with him about seeking God and see what God has to say about what to do next. My answer is this, the answer is yes. It may be a struggle in the beginning, but yea, I would do it.

Why I say it's a struggle? To move from working in a corporate world with a steady income to working for God and all... the struggle is the adaptation to things around me. But one thing I see is the advantage is that I would learn to depend on God more too. My friend, again ask me, if God wants you to go to Africa, would you go? I told him that if that's God's plan for me, for my life, I am sure He will provide for me and all. He would definitely not give me anything or put me in circumstances that I cannot handle. It again, may be a struggle in the beginning, but GOd is with us.

My friend shared that he might not have the strength to do that. God does not demand us to use our own strength to do things for Him. But rather, God seeks one who has a willing heart. Look at David, a small boy, one that people will not choose. But God chose him because of his willingness, because of his heart for God. Look at Moses, one who can't really speak well, stutters when he speaks, an old man... but God chose him to bring the Israelites out of Eygpt.

I'm not saying that I am a saint or that I would not struggle if God calls me to serve Him. Maybe I would, in the sense that I'm worried about finances, I'm worried about my parents and how they would accept that fact, for they've worked hard to put me through university and I turn around and say I wana serve God full time. Them being non-christian might not be able to understand or accept it. But I believe that if that's what's God's plan is for my life, we just need to hold on to Him and trust Him on it.

I pray and hope that those who are reading this... don't think you're a weak person or that you are just not capable of doing what God calls or asks you to do. God will not demand from us something that we are totally not capable of. It may just be that you have yet to discover this capability of yours :) Have faith and continue to trust that God will bring you through whatever He has planned for you.

May God bless you abundantly my friends.

UPdates

Disappeared again! haha, haven't been updating the blog again since the workaholic notations. Let's see what's been happening in my life for the past weeks.

1. Did a presentation in front of the client last month. My very first one and I was sooooo tension! So scared of saying the wrong thing. When it was over and done with, I was glad that I've managed to say what is needed to be said and all. Yet, I do know that there are heaps of things that I need to improve on. Did not actually do a very good job in it. Oh well, it's a first. Will get a hang of it later I guess.

2. Was worship leading alongside Pris when I realised I got no more voice! I'm supposed to speak during offering n prayer, and I ended looking at Pris and mouthing, "NO VOICE" to her. Haha, my attempt at prayer ended up sounding so hoarse that I wonder if people can hear me. Oh well, it's a prayer for Him and not for others. Not to self, SLEEP EARLIER n DRINK MORE WATER.

3. Had a crazy last Monday. Flew to Singapore in the morning and flew back in the afternoon. It felt really surreal... but it was crazy when I was there. Met Lucy (the office's cleaning lady) who commented... u come here to study arh? Apparently I look like a student with my backpack and casual. Sigh.... hello! I'm not that young ok!

4. Went to Malacca (more accounts later on) and aside from all the sweats (literal) I had a great time there

5. Spent the rest of the week in a daze, can't remember exactly what I did for the rest of the weekdays after the holiday break.

6. Went to a friend's wedding. The church is beautiful! There were so many stained glass surrounding the church that really makes me think of the passages in the bible. The one that struck me was the picture of sheeps and a staff, reminding me of Psalm 23, The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want...

7. Had a glass of wine, went dizzy after that. Reason: I gulped it down too fast! Haha, not really a fan of wine, was just helping... overly enthusiastic I guess. I was okay though, just a bit dizzy if I make sudden movement.

8. Went to a brethren church on Sunday. An eye opener... never been to one, so it's something different. Fell in love with one of the hymns, can't remember how it goes or it's title, but I remembered it to be number 713. Should get it from my friend...

9. Remembered what was shared during the service. Talking about "When bad things happened". I remembered the person sharing mentioned that people who ask, "Why did God let this happened". It reminds me of the incident in Virginia Tech and in Columbine High School. Tragic incidents.. yet people blame God and all. What Geri shared in her blog is quite true. We asked God where He was when bad things happened. Yet, we rejected Him when things are going well, we pushed Him away, we turn the other way from Him. Yet, when things happened, we ask where He was. He is always there, it was just us who turned away.

Will share more another day I guess. Having a headache right now, guessed it's triggered by my "wonderful" job. kekeke.... not complaining, am still thankful that I have a job here.

Seberang Perai

It's 5plus and I'm in my hotel room in Seberang Perai. There's seriously nothing much here... probably a small mall and some stores outside. No idea what to eat for dinner... might just settle down at the Old Town Kopitiam that I saw outside. Hopefully I'll get to eat dinner, that is, since would drag on to 9ish and I'll need to do some follow up calls as well.

Must kayao! keke.. not for myself but rather for God! I wana do this well for Him.....

Erratic Week

What an erratic week last week. There's just so many minor things that arises all throughout, literally keeping me on my toes! I am thankful that it's over now... don't really want to dwell in it. Hopefully things won't be like this crazy again for this coming week. Don't think I can take it if it does happen.

Went out with some new friends yday.. we went to this eatery called Marmalade in Bangsar Village 2. It's such a cosy place! Totally reminds me of Geri's room in Gippyland with the numerous bean bags around. I totally plunked myself on one and couldn't get up! hahah... so fun and funny at the same time.... with the next one, a friend offer to pull me up, but decided not to take up his offer, lest i pull him down instead....

Here's some of the pictures of the food we ate there... yummylicious!!


Here's the group pictures :)

Slow paced weekend

After a crazy last weekend, it turns out to be kinda slow for me this weekend... I'm actually feeling kinda bored right now, guess that's why I'm blogging as well.

Went to Janda Baik for a wedding today. Woah, it's really a beautiful place, one that really separate you from the hectic pace around us. Up there, you'll be surrounded by heaps of soft pine trees... assuring and easing you... cool wind breeze blowing through the whole area... taking whatever hectic feeling that's surrounding you away... ease.... wonderful..

I regret forgetting about my camera, otherwise I would've snapped non-stop.... here's a couple that I took using my lil camera phone...



I couldn't resist taking the following picture... it's just too cute to resist!

Monday Morning

It's Monday morning and I'm all alone in the office. Am not even sure if anyone is coming in later. But it's also a good thing that I'm all alone. I like being alone at times because you get to settle down and think about things.

Things have been hectic the past week, trying to juggle handling customers as well as trying to get things done for my boss. But praise God most of it is already settled. Next week will be another whirlwind for me I guess, with heaps of groups happening and rushing things again. Yeap, the timeline for this job can sometimes be quite tough. But I guess as one learns when to be focused and when to juggle things, one gets more familiar with it. Will learn in time.

Slow and steady win the race eh, be it in the rat race or even in our race towards to finish line.

Little Havana

It's 1.49am right now and I have a different reason altogether that I'm still awake. I just came back from a place called Little Havana. If you like salsa, latin dance, or even dance yourself, this is one place that you should visit. I felt like "katak di bawah tempurung" when I got there. Not knowing what to expect, a few of my friends and I ventured to this place unknown.

When I got there, it was really an eye opener! Why so? Because there's so many people who dances salsa there. And they are realllllyyyyyyy GOOD! I'm quite amazed with all the turns that the girls are doing and the leading of some of the guys there... Woah, never did I expect things to be so good there. One thing for sure, I love the music coz it really makes you want to dance. Sad to say, none of us dare to venture onto the dance floor as, as you would know, salsa dance is totally different from the clubbing scene. We just stood at the side watching people do all their turns and shakings. But I had fun watching as well....does makes me wana learn salsa... haha...

BLog

Okay, for those who have been reading my blog would notice that there's a lot of things happening for me in work department. Given that it's a new job and I'm practically learning while on the job, there's bound to be updates.

I guess it won't lessen anytime soon, but I'll be sure to try to update more stuff than just this :)

oh YA! BTW, I got a new baby!!! In the sense that I got a new handphone! It's a Sony Ericsson w710i

I'll talk abt it more when I have the timelor

Thoughts at the start of the YEAR

I can't believe it! The year passed me by so fast... It's now a brand new year at a brand new place with brand new challenges to face. Am I excited? I'm not sure. I do wonder if I am.

Certain people asked me about my resolution for the year. My response? I don't do resolution. Why? Because I know I won't follow it through. I am not the kind of person who is very resolute in what she does. I do as things comes my way, that's me and it's very hard for me to change it, although I know I should. But then again, oh well :)

This year will definitely be a challenging year for me, for the fact that I am in an entirely new field in which I need to tackle. Do I take up the challenge? I am trying to, though things can certainly be overwhelming right now. Do I concede? I am trying not to, because though things are different, it doesn't mean that I can't do it right?

One thing is that in this job, I do get to travel, be it within Malaysia or even overseas. There's still alot of things that I am quite blur being in this company, but I am taking things in stride, being myself and taking up things and challenges that I can. But being in a small company allows me to learn more I guess, we shall see :)

There are times when I do feel so tired from everything that I don't feel like updating my blog. I shall try to update as often as I could. But sometimes it does feel like there isn't anyone who checks my blog out :( A bit disappointing. Sometimes I think I should actually stop blogging... just a thought.

This year is deemed as a challenge year for me. Why do I say that? It's because I feel that both my work life, church life and personal life is being challenged. Work as in, new job, new situation and new things. As for church, I may be taking up new role, as a teacher to the teens!! Oh wow, am not entirely sure if I can take up the challenge but I shall try. This really test you to the maximum eh.. such a big responsibility. Also, I'll be part of the core committee for the youth and teens too, in planning and setting up activities for them. Another one is worship leading. I am not sure if I am capable of all these things, but I am willing to try.

Personal life, there's a lot of things happening right now that I am not sure if it is going the direction that I want it to be. Really do have to sit down and seek God in terms of direction. But it's a bit hard given that I can't seem to even find a quiet place to place my focus on. Sigh..

Frankly speaking, I am worried that I am not able to juggle work with church life, and that is my biggest concern. It's not about just serving, but I see it as placing God first in my life. My priority has always been God and hence, I don't want it to change just because I am in a new job. Such a dilemma sometimes, but it really do test your faith in that sense, to be able to focus and see what your ultimate decision is. I do hope that this job serve to draw me closer to God rather than pulling me away.

I have certain plans in which I want to execute and today proved to be a good day when I shared this thought with my friend. She gave me such sound advice that it really got me excited over it! hahah.. can't wait to really sit down and do up what is required.

This Saturday would be a working day for me, sigh..... so sad huh!!! But what to do, honey moon days at new job has ended. I believe my workload will increase dramatically once I come back from Singapore's training. I can only pray.....